I LOVE TODAY 95% I HATE TO DAY 5%

I start with y i hate today 5% well first thing i was having flu :(
secondly had to go for medical checkup and got 2 FREAKING INJECTION!
Now i'm having fever and i still have to sudy for my test :(
Plus the pain on both my arms keep comming and going :(

Now for why i love 95% of the day well she is talking to me again :)
and we will be meeting up tmr hopefully my fever would go away :)
and i did something which is a little embarrasing for me ;)
but anyway i don't care hehe though we never talk in person
we still chat in fb one or two words :)
i was holding my breath all this while,and now i manage to let it out atlast.
as i said in twitter my smile is creeping me out hahahaha.
yes i was studying and smiling at the same time (creepy rite)
i would not wanna go in details and all :)

WOW MY BLOG WAS DEAD NOW IT"S ALIVE!!!!!!!!

I wanted to post this long time back but i had no time!

Whatever happened between the both of us lets treat it as a nightmare PLS.
You are a friend that i would never want to lose. With what happened and everything,
without you talking to me i feel like the world ended and i felt depressed.
I did not know what i did wrong, that on that day i drink when i told myself not too.
But You are my close friend i know what u have been through.
For a momement i was thinking that u will never treat me the same even as a friend
but you will always be my best friend. That would never change
I cried myself to sleep thinking about what was going on between the both of us.
friends around me may be big but once you are not with me i feel empty
All i one is for you to be happy and not get hurt over and over again.
I did not had fun on Saturday because we could not talk properly
while you were feeding me and rubini i felt happy for that moment.
but when i came to return the scarf and you walked away that hurt alot.
Than i knew you were not happy. And i was scared that what was going to happen next
just remember one thing i will always be there for you

Do you think other people care about your problems?
No

i just noticed that i give others a listerning ear but
they don't seem to care if i'm ok. forget it
write it here also no point so many things running in my mind
but who to tell it to. well apparently no one.Tell them also they don't
seem to care so rather just keep it to myself and cry to myself ever night
even if i want to say something also i have to think twice
i have to keep thinking if they would listern anot
if i think too long i will just give up and keep it to myself
I may seem to be all fine and happy on the outside but till now
no one including someone knows another thing thats happening to me
why they don't know it's because of my surrounding

and a guy just annoyed me on the phone

ok i think i might want to forget abt P.W.S no point thinking and crushing on him anymore i don't even talk or smile so wads the point anyway i feel invisible infront of him so i guess i will try my best to forget abt him but it's gonna be difficult cause it's been a few months since i like him, and i think i'm better off without any guys in my life it's so difficult to trust guys now a days (no offence) i rather not think abt anyone than get my heart broken

Friday
the class wore the class-t :) haha ok than aft sch slack for awhile,
than went to bedok ite with jun jie, johnson, marcov and pei huan
had the boring meeting but there was a incident that happen last week
but my class people had to leave early we were like talking abt the incident
for quite long. than aft went home

Saturday
went for dance practice at ceylon sports club than was happy that 2 dance is finished
than dance till 4.30pm than followed buvana and harini to their place
iron our clother got ready 5.15pm, told jivinia to take a cab to their place as the bus
will come at 6pm than bring vithya, mani, and sara to their house they were changing
and i was doing my hair in a hurry. than meet aravind went to the bus than drove
to hougang than the prayers started at around 7 under the void deck and was
likw super nervous cause so many people sing and all aft was the urumi melam group
was eating than talk to aravind abt someone. 9pm dad came to fetch me i got freaking
more than 10 miss calls from her sia so irritating.

Today
dance at 2 pm for me for the third song while the others were coming at 3
so left my place and suppose to meet aravind at 1.30 at boon keng mrt,
again she kept on calling and she wanted to meet me
but i ignore her calls he was also telling me not to answer so aravind was late and
i was freaking out if i would bumb into her than 1.55 he came went to KFC bought
cheese fries without mionese cause i vegitarian than aravind bought bubble tea
walked to ceylon sports club talked and all reach there vithya and the aunty was there
now i'm relive that the third song is all done :D but still alittle confuse other than
that it's all ok ;) while dancing it was like so comedy lah so much of over acting
and aravind felt like vomiting and they were saying that he is pregnant and all
than finish went to eat me and aravind did not want her to follow us
but wad to do she keep asking me to go home with her but in the end she left first
guna uncle drop the 4 of us at tekka i regret not going home cause the place was
so super full of those workers lucky aravind accompany me if not i would be
freaking out all the way than train back home
(i'm too lazy to write out certain things)

i'm so angry that if i see that guy i will murder him for making my sister go through this horrible pain

YES! i'm very very angry now. i'm so angry that if i see that guy i will find a nearest sharp object and just stab him like nobody business this is how angry i am. A*S u want to play with my family u confirm will regret what u did. Her brother will confirm give u a wonderful present if he see u.
You spoiled her peace and happiness u happy. F**K u happy i give u big present u will confirm like it TRUST ME!
If i show my attitude or if i'm moody tmr i'm sry guys i really cannot take it i'm so close to breaking any object i see. She was so looking forward to that day and it's on her birthday but she is really lucky nothing happen

R.I.P to the person in YV091A

was using facebook when i saw someone put R.I.P to him
when i ask shiqa she told me her classmate passed away today :(
kind of shocking cause i saw him few days ago and he passed away
i know his name but don't feel like writing it here

Today was boring morning LPD than SW than break
went to student hub cause today got duty
(learn this if it is not ur duty day never ever go behind the reception table)
because the other SC's will be very very pissed with you
most of them were very pissed with someone there, his duty not today but
he was behind the reception table but i think he also got to think that
his duty day is another day why want to be extra there same goes to the other person
just cause u bored u don't have to be extra there rite already got so many people
u want come and be extra act cool only but cannot make it.

than 1.30 went back to class for electrical i forgot to bring my stupid tumbdrive
so could not present it today :( than 2 plus got break come back 3pm ng tat hwee
started with the ppt and second slide i slept already cause he was too dragy
when i woke up i felt like i'm not myself. i cross the road without looking for the cars
and i ended up standing in the middle of the road where there are like cars coming
opp direction. i have no idea wad i was thinking

OMG I NEED MY STAMINA
I have to do 3 dance before 29 August gosh
so far altogerther there is like 4 gals and 5 guys i think for different songs
The first dance is done it's a little slow since there is 4 gals altogether

Than second dance it's a little fast but 3 of us are paired up with guys
and i'm still not use to it as i keep on laughing because of the expression

The THIRD DANCE IS A KILLER it's a super energetic dance.
At first i thought dhurga was going to dance for the third song
but than she said she can't do it cause she is already doing 3 dance
and if she do this it would be her forth dance so i have to do this dance.
But the costume for the third dance is nice

Damn i have to dance with 2 different guys for two songs
and i'm not use to dancing with guys and the 3 songs that i will be dancing
is like from slow, meduim to fast and i have to change my coutume fast no wasting time
plus i must control my diet no fast food, drink more water, eat properly but less,
no skipping of meals as i'm having gastric pain so i think i will at least loose some weight
hahaha lets see how it goes ;)

Today is such a tired day
whole day was pratical 9am-5pm and i'm tired to the max!

i had to redo the thing cause my wood broke :(
but i manage to do it fast thanks to daniel, dennis they all haha
cause they also redo their work piece

so was in the work shop for like super long and my coveralls were wet!
Yes! wet! it was so warm! and i saw Pearly White Smile HAHAHA!
so went for lunch at 11 plus than went to student hub
and my shift for SC in the student hub is on mondays
and the others are on friday but i still got isabel to acompany:)
was disturbing fedora while she was playing her CS
went out for awhile cause it was super cold and than after awhile
saw peraly white smile coming out from the student hub hahaha

aft that 1pm went back to sheetmetal room again with pratical
so sian! and today i was like some retard! i was super high for no reason
laughing like some mad woman! than 2 plus break
went canteen with some of them slack for awhile chit chat
than saw pearly white smile again hahahahahahahaha i'm like some physco
keep saying that i saw him. than while coming back to class i was being like a retard
i just started shouting "ribena" all the way to class haha kind of stupid

i seriously have no idea why i was high today mabe it's because of the coke, 100+ and the ribena
hhahaha makes no sence rite i realy feel like a total retard today and it reminds me of STC
hw crazy we all were

Shobana
age: 16 going on 17
school:yishun
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